"Release the demons and the allow the diamonds to show up."vb

This is a statement I said to a client today while in a session. We were discussing how cute we are as humans when we hold on to things that are no longer serving us. We are tenacious sometimes with who wronged us or things that didn't go our way as well as if it happened to a perfect stranger. I agree compassion is a lost art sometimes but so is moving on it seems.

There has been A LOT of moving for me over the last few months. I am sure you can tell because there has been less posts than even normal for me and there has been some periods of pure silence. This is not intentional to keep people out of the loop, this is so I can navigate the loop! There are these twists and turns and inversions and other loopdiloops that will not only turn your stomach, they will create a feeling of discombobulation. (I love that word. I have since it was on our vocabulary list in sixth grade!) Which end is up and where am I going?

As you may be aware, in August we sold the store and practitioner space at Connections. I stayed on for the transition knowing that in order for it to shift and grow I would have to exit stage left. I did this in the beginning of October. I found the cutest office just mere feet from the old location and settled in for what I hoped was a collaborative relationship. This did not happen. I found out, after some other people, that the new owner felt it necessary to close the store. While the reasons are not important, the hole I felt was. I felt a great loss of community and a great sadness for those that for three years had found comfort and a place of acceptance in Connections. Sure, some didn't have any money but the scent of incense was free and the feeling of being safe for just a few minutes was priceless. I also felt powerless to solve this. It is, of course, not mine to solve. This was a BIG realization for me. I would just have to let go and continue to move on.

I could hold on to the disappointment, the sadness and even the grief of something that we poured so much energy and heart into or I could realize this disappointment may be my greatest teacher yet. Things didn't go as I saw them going (enter other people's free will) and I wasn't in a place of power to do anything about it although I tried. I brainstormed with Howard, I cried, I yelled, I pouted (not proud of that one) and eventually realized I had to let go. I had to back up and let things come to a halt in order to go forward again. I can't speak for the store Connections because legally we don't own it but damn it, I can speak to the energy that was Connections and turn this demon into a diamond.

I can thank each and every person who came across our path in the process of creating the store from the suppliers, to the customers near and far, to our amazing practitioners, to the people who wandered in and didn't have a clue what we were. I can thank Spirit for whispering (yelling) in my ear to open a store on North Street. I can thank the employees over the years and the incredible support we received from community when people would call to check on Howard after each of his surgeries. I can thank our families for putting up with empty chairs at functions because we had to open the store and I can thank all of the little kids who ever played in the fountain. I can thank our neighbors in the Central Block for being so fun and for caring as well as our landlords for being great people and answering the phone when Vicki called and said, "did you know the water is running continuously in the janitor closet or Did you know the alarm is going off?". ahhhh, Rich will probably not miss me too much. :) I can thank ourselves for still showing up when we were exhausted and not sure we could go on or make a profit or even wanted to talk about incense and rocks ever again.

I have been thanking each and every aspect of this process and yes, if I hear one more time that I will know what the lesson is soon enough, I may scream but I'd be screaming at me because I keep saying it to myself. You see, I don't believe I am an effective intuitive coach if I am not willing to look at my own stuff and walk this walk of blending the physical life with spirituality!

I believe that the disappointment of these last two weeks are helping me to appreciate the beauty around me and all the things I have in this life and for that diamond, I am incredibly grateful. The demons of yesterday and many decades of issues have shifted and for that I am thankful. I am sure there will be other levels of releasing and perhaps even grief as we move through the next few months, but ya know what? I create diamonds wherever I go and I am so grateful for the knowledge that it is even possible.

I thank you for reading this and wish you great happiness and diamond gathering as well.
Vicki


www.vickibaird.com

"It takes courage to imagine your life different." Lindsay TF

This is one of my favorite quotes because it really does take that courage to look and see that things could be different for you. It also takes bravery, a sense of adventure and a just a little bit of silly to start making those changes that you would like to see. It is also one of my favorites because I actually know the person who said it! It isn't just a random collection of words from someone afar, it is someone I have had the pleasure of seeing grow and use that courage on many occasions. 

I am seeing a lot of people lately who are digging deep into their own fears and moving forward in whatever form they would like to see their lives unfold. This is really exciting to me as a person, soul and coach. As a person it helps me to remember to look at challenges as a fun thing, as a soul it makes me happy to be part of this time in our universe and as a coach it excites me for it means we are growing as a people and I get to be a part of that! Sweet!

I said to a client yesterday that what if the feeling she was feeling wasn't doom and gloom, but rather a feeling that she was about to bloom? Using a plant as an example, they have to push through the dirt and the layers of Earth to show up and reach the sunshine. I bet that is uncomfortable at some point but the plant, knowing that stagnation is certain death, isn't going to just lay there and lament, it is going to keep reaching for that breakthrough. Nature is amazing isn't it? We are amazing aren't we? I believe so. 

So, the next time you feel like you can't do something, remind yourself that you have the same innate knowing as the plant or you wouldn't have come here to learn and grow. You would have remained an inert being simply floating around the stratosphere. I, for one, am glad you decided to push through that dirt and show up and we got to be in this garden together!

How are you riding this wave of energy? Do you feel like you need a seat belt for life? That is how I am feeling. A cross between a whoaaaaaa this is intense and wheeeeeeeeeeee, I want more. We are coming off of another wave of energy that went from the last week of June through the last week of July. THAT was intense! Things were cranky and we were being pushed to bring clarity to what wasn't working in our lives. Now we always have these waves of energy but they don't usually hang on for FOUR FREAKING WEEKS! phew, I feel better just yell typing that.

Hopefully you were able to use that time to clarify what you really want in life. For myself it came with a clarity of no longer wanting to run a retail store. I adore the customers, I love the product and hey, I'm pretty fond of the staff too, but phew, I was stick me with a fork done. This energy helped me be honest with myself first and then be able to formulate a plan to allow the store to grow to the next place and in turn, allow myself to grow. FOR FOR FREAKING WEEKS! oh, did I mention that already?

The energy that came in yesterday a bit like a freight train on speed, is much lighter but just as fast moving. It is propelling all the changes that were made during that time. It is fast and it is taking no mercy. The reason I came up with the wave is the visual I keep seeing is lying on my back with my head toward the vastness of the ocean and my feet facing the beach. I am lying on my back and just riding the wave into the beach. The interesting thing to me was that I was on my back. I wasn't boogie boarding or directing, I was allowing the energy of the wave to guide me in safely and totally trusting that I would end up where I was meant to be. A very cool feeling. The learning to put my head back and just ride may have taken some time to develop, but it is so worth the journey to get here to be able to look at the sky and listen to the ocean with my ears under water and to smell the perfect saltiness of our largest body of water.

This trust didn't come over night, I have really been conscious of where I put my energy and how I use it, especially lately and that clarity of what I want to do as opposed to where there is a perception I should do something is so freeing. Sure, people may get disappointed but what they think of me or how I am living is none of my business. You read that correctly, it is none of MY business. I want my wave to continue to move forward and to use that expansiveness at my head to my fullest potential. If I pay attention to them, that won't happen, so here I am floating away creating my bliss.

This is not to be considered a warning of energy, this is to be considered a helper. Use it wisely, the energy that is, what you do with the blog post is up to you.  Use the frequency of it to propel you forward to create the life you really want to have. Looking back and complaining will only turn you in circles, so why not put your head back and look at the sky with me.

This energy will phase out by Sunday ushering in a calm...for a little while. :) September is setting up to be another very fast month so please learn to slow down now and find the beauty in meandering, or floating or watching grass grow. Whatever works for you. If you are slow when the energy is fast, you can create amazing leaps and manifestations. If you get all wired up when the energy is fast, you will only create anxiety. I don't know about you, but I am not a fan of frenetic energy.

When you are feeling like the world is spinning too fast, just return to your breath or that meandering and be grateful you KNOW there is more going on then with you and if you relax you can reap the benefits. How nice to be in the know, isn't it?

Kicking back and catching the wave,
Vicki

www.vickibaird.com 

Doesn't this look absolutely Divine? Doesn't it just invite you in to take a rest and stare at the trees and water and whatever wildlife are around while you just veg out? It does to me. Too often in our culture we have to schedule the downtime. Think of the last vacation you took, did you vacate or did you run everywhere trying to cram as much into the time as possible and then needed a vacation from your vacation. Maybe you haven't taken a vacation and that could be the one thing you DO get done today, scheduling it!

I decided this summer I was not going to look back and have no quality of life and I also wasn't going to move through the warm months here in New England without enjoyment. The vacationing I like to do is a four day non scheduled, go with the flow kind of vacation. So, I scheduled one every month for the months of  May, June and July There were the typical critic head messages saying, you have to work, you have bills to pay and the what will you DOOOOOO? They were there, but I didn't have to listen to them. I decided that I was going to mix it up. So in May Howard and I went to Virginia to see family and friends as well as Washington D.C. In June I planned to go camping with some friends and July I planned on attending a wedding in California. I'm glad I had the go with the flow mentality because the camping trip was a washout! The wedding in California will be wonderful I am sure but I won't be attending as responsibilities will be creating a staycation for me, which I probably need more anyway. I didn't plan anything in August but the universe put one together for me in September combining work and play, which is the perfect scenario if you ask me!

What will  you do to relax this summer? To just lie around and not be on the go? I personally believe that we should have this every day, a little vacation in every single day, be it  meditation, a walk, listening to calming music or laughing with loved ones. Something in every day to allow us to shut off the mind chatter and to create a break in the noise and the rushing. I will admit that it takes practice to create this because it took practice to create the madness, but I know you can do it. Howard recently built a porch on the front of our house. I have been enjoying the being out and not running so much, I've fallen a bit behind in my writing but that is ok, because the break will create genius....I hope.

So, here is to longer days where we have more time to practice this time of checking in with self, breathing and perhaps an iced coffee or two! I wish you the best of summer seasons whenever it happens in your world and I wish you the relaxation of a summer day all year round.

Viewing life from my porch, wave if you drive by,
Vicki

www.vickibaird.com

Energy, Energy, it is all Energy and boy is it flying lately!

 

Isn't it? Are you feeling like something wound you up and is creating havoc in your electrical field? Are you crankier than usual, yet hopeful at the same time? Yup, we call that energy and I call it an energy upgrade. So, hang on to your shorts, or long pants and rain coat, if you are in the Northeast, as it is getting better and better and better.

 

I waited until today to mention this as I wanted people to not wind it up any further. It is all about me you know and the energy I perceive. HA!  So, the really cool thing about June 10th, besides my niece's birthday, is it is an opening or energy boost. We have these several times a year and they are getting closer and closer together. You can feel the momentum building if you are willing to step out of the perception that it is all about you. :) It will last for another few days and then balance out at this higher frequency. Cool huh?

 

Whenever there is an energy surge or opening, it amplifies what we are already looking at or working through, BUT, it also helps us to move forward. It is up to us if we use the energy in our greatest interest or if we use it to go further into our stuff. It is always a choice how we respond. We all have old tapes in our heads and they can be quite effective but eventually realizing the technology has moved us to digital and a faster medium is amazing and very freeing.

 

This energy is also bringing a great deal of change to people's lives. There are houses selling galore, people moving, businesses changing, relationships moving to new levels, getting clean, spiritual changes to the max and an amazing amount of letting go happening. GO YOU!

 

Take these next few days to be especially aware of your words and your mood. If it isn't forward moving or positive, please don't share it. If you have a hard time getting to a higher vibration of energy, take a walk, look at nature and it's amazing ability to be flexible and malleable. The energy will be intense for the next two days especially but your words will live on beyond that and so will anything you create in this time.

 

Also take these few days to really get clear about what you would like in life, or maybe your are like myself and would like to create a life! Get creative, get moving and allow the gift of possibility to be in your life.

 

With you on the roller coaster of energy life with my hands high in the air,

Vicki

 



Ever have one of those experiences presented to you that you KNOW is in your best interest but your gut tells you that it is going to be BIG and maybe a little scary to show up to? Kind of like a root canal or committing to a degree program, yeah that is what this week had felt like to me so far. Actually the degree program would probably be less stressful and I would get to buy school supplies, who doesn't love that?

A couple of months ago I had agreed to speak at an event where I would be challenged to encourage change, teamwork and a can do attitude. I thought, oh that's easy, I can do that, I do that every day in my work and LOVE it. So I readily agreed. Did I mention that this would be at the place where I had spent a lot of time and did a ton of growing, not always in a loving way and sometimes in a contortionist ouch that hurts way? No? Well, yes it was. I still thought, oh good, full circle, this is good too Vicki, just do it, kind of like Nike!  Get in there, do your talk, we all know I can talk, and be grateful for the experience. So I did.

Let me preface this by saying I am VERY grateful for the experience and truly believe in the place still. So, here come the hard part...IT WAS HARD! It was difficult to go in and not be a part of the organization but as my former favorite roommate at this place would say, the red headed step child. I never really got that statement until this week. I have had times, like all of us, where I didn't feel like I fit and most of the time I can just roll with it and ask what am I supposed to learn here and be done with it, yeah, a little harder here. It was harder because the rules had changed. I wasn't an employee, I was the hired help (well, technically the not hired help as I waived my fee because if you are going to be in pain, you may as well do it for free, right? Oy.). I was the one that was questioned when I first got there what service could I possibly provide (yes, this was said out loud to me and not an ego thing, although it could become one if I let it, I didn't.) and they hoped my talk was interesting. No pressure right?

So, long story short, I did my talk and I didn't like it. You know why I didn't like what I said, which was the same things I had written out and loved? I didn't like it because I bailed on me. I conformed to what they wanted. I gave the talk some did not want to hear, as was evident by some hand gestures in the audience. Here is a clue to those of you attending talks, WE CAN SEE YOU doing those faces and gestures and I can only assume the subject made them uncomfortable and send compassion. Later I could have a melt down but in front of people, no way.

I allowed a situation to dictate who I was and pull me out of the alignment I work so hard to maintain. I allowed someone to say to me, it is ok you are an intuitive but don't use any of that here. Deja vu I gotta tell ya, daja vu. So in that very moment when I was driving away from the venue I made a commitment to myself that I would only do events that were in alignment with who and what I am and the others can hire those that will give speeches that align with their desire to repeat past patterns. I was not the chick for the job. That was so clarifying and freeing because if I'm not me, no one else will be so I gotta rock this intuitive Vicki thing.

The reason I share this besides the fact I am an open book, is that you may have had similar situations and not known what to do with the emotions or the reactions that come up. Well, you look at them, you examine your part and you let it go if someone else doesn't like what you have to say. You show up for YOU and you embrace all your wonderful qualities and allow those that want to point fingers to do so, but don't agree to be on the firing range.

As the quote says, your vision will become clear when you look inside of you. I'm here to ask you to do that BEFORE you walk into a situation no matter how much you want to believe people change and are accepting. Some just aren't, bottom line. How you feel about you is the most important and perceptions of others, well, they just aren't that important. Should you find yourself in the situation, don't panic, just take a breathe and line back up with what you know to be true.

I will take this experience and still be grateful for it for I truly believe there is a message in any situation. Then I will be thankful to myself that I have been willing to change and am excited for any opportunity that can help me do it some more. I know I will be less likely to do the contortionist thing again because I will see it so much quicker next time. The beauty of life experience.

Here is to learning how to navigate this spiritual experience in a human body one glorious lesson at a time.

Viewing life with just a little bit more awe,
Vicki

www.vickibaird.com

....You never know what life is going to present you. Sure you can prepare by being attentive, clarifying what you would like and sure, seeing an intuitive that has the ability to see your path, but even then, you really don't know for sure. It isn't that said intuitive isn't accurate, it is that there are so many variables and how you shift on a moment to moment basis can effect so much.

The reason I bring this probably not news to you is that there is great fun in not knowing but most people are uncomfortable with the unknown. I would like to help them be so comfortable with themselves that whatever is going to happen is a non issue because they know they've got it!
 It is one of the reasons I became a certified life coach, to be able to offer that service in addition to my movie screen of information. Does that give me an edge as a coach? Perhaps, but it is the genuine desire to help people feel their value that is really most important, don't you feel? To be able to trust in themselves so much that they embrace what is still unknown to them.

When people trust in themselves they are tapped into the energy more too. Have you felt the energy this week? Whoa baby it has been moving, moving, moving. If there is an unfinished project on your list, I would suggest you dig out the list and see what you need to move the project forward. Energy is always moving but when we get these surges it can help the productivity along. Think of it as rocket fuel!

It feels as if we will have a full week of momentum, so it is up to you whether you use it for your own benefit or you allow it to freak you out. For instance, if you know your business needs to shift and calling a marketing person has been on your list, take a deep breath and do it. (Call me, I know a good company.) Or perhaps you have been putting off taking a class, call the college, dance studio, library or private tutor, do it! Maybe there is a relationship that is stagnating and you've had ideas of how to help it but have been hesitant to say anything, say it! Believe in your ability to carry it through, whatever that it is. You can do it!

Last week I accomplished more in one day than I had in weeks. Recognizing the flow of energy I got on that puppy like a surfer catching a great wave for when we are in alignment with the flow it will take us great lengths. I used it again today to clean the house to usher in the energy and the dirt out!

 There will always be things on the to do list but boy it feels good to cross off the ones that take up so much energy just thinking about. Do you have a pile of papers that need going through, do you have to make an eye doctor appointment, do you have to call the IRS? If you do, ask for agent 10748526, she was a sweetie! Regardless of what you would like to accomplish, allow the tail wind to propel you forward this week and enjoy the ride!

The adventure of life is why we choose to come here as a soul, to learn, to play and to grow but mostly to have fun. So put that on your list and do it!

Arms out in balance, riding the wave,
Vicki